Bay Palomar, \u0131ss\u0131z bir kumsal boyunca y\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Tek t\u00fck denize girenlere rastl\u0131yor, Gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n, kumlara uzanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri \u00e7\u0131plak, g\u00fcne\u015fleniyor. Sayg\u0131l\u0131 bir insan olan Bay Palomar, bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 denizin ufkuna \u00e7eviriyor. B\u00f6ylesi durumlarda, bir yabanc\u0131n\u0131n yakla\u015fmas\u0131yla kad\u0131nlar\u0131n aceleyle \u00f6rt\u00fcnd\u00fcklerini biliyor ve g\u00fczel bulmuyor bunu: \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc, rahat\u00e7a g\u00fcne\u015flenenin rahat\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131yor; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ge\u00e7en erkek, rahats\u0131zl\u0131k verdi\u011fini anl\u0131yor; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc, \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131k tabusu \u00fcst\u00fc kapal\u0131 bir bi\u00e7imde do\u011frulanm\u0131\u015f oluyor; \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc yar\u0131s\u0131na uyulan uzla\u015fmalar, davran\u0131\u015fa \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck ve a\u00e7\u0131kl\u0131k yerine, g\u00fcvensizlik ve tutars\u0131zl\u0131k veriyorlar.<\/p>\n
Bu nedenle, uzaktan \u00e7\u0131plak bir kad\u0131n g\u00f6vdesinin tun\u00e7 pembesi bulutunun belirdi\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez, bak\u0131\u015f y\u00f6r\u00fcngesi bo\u015flukta as\u0131l\u0131 kalacak ve ki\u015fileri \u00e7evreleyen g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez s\u0131n\u0131ra uygarca sayg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kan\u0131tlayacak bi\u00e7imde, hemen ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7eviriyor.<\/p>\n
Ama -diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, yolunda ilerlerken ve ufuk bo\u015fal\u0131r bo\u015falmaz, g\u00f6zyuvarlar\u0131n\u0131n devinimlerini yeniden \u00f6zg\u00fcrle\u015ftirirken- b\u00f6yle yapmakla g\u00f6rmeye kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum, yani ben de, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerin g\u00f6r\u00fclmesini yasak sayan uzla\u015fmay\u0131 g\u00fc\u00e7lendirmi\u015f oluyorum, ya da g\u00f6zlerimle, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131m\u0131n s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131ndan bana ula\u015fan bulan\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcden, diri ve g\u00f6z ok\u015fay\u0131c\u0131 olduklar\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m o g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsler aras\u0131nda bir t\u00fcr zihinsel s\u00fctyen olu\u015fturuyorum. K\u0131sacas\u0131, bakmay\u0131\u015f\u0131m o \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekte oldu\u011fumun, onunla ilgilendi\u011fimin \u00f6nvarsay\u0131m\u0131 anlam\u0131na geliyor ve bu da, temelde yine sayg\u0131s\u0131z ve gerici bir davran\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
Gezintisinden d\u00f6nerken, Palomar yine g\u00fcne\u015flenen kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7iyor ve bu kez, geri gelen dalgalar\u0131n k\u00f6p\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, k\u0131y\u0131ya \u00e7ekilmi\u015f kay\u0131klar\u0131n g\u00f6vdelerini, kuma yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f deniz havlusunu, daha a\u00e7\u0131k derinin ays\u0131 yuvarlakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla meme ucunun esmer aylas\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fit olarak g\u00f6zucuyla tarayacak bi\u00e7imde, bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ne sabitle\u015ftiriyor.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte -diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, kendinden ho\u015fnut, yoluna devam ederken – g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc t\u00fcm\u00fcyle so\u011furmas\u0131n\u0131 ve bak\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n bir mart\u0131n\u0131n ya da bir mezgitin bak\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan daha fazla a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k vermemesini sa\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ama b\u00f6yle yapmak do\u011fru mu acaba? diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, yine- insan ki\u015fili\u011fini nesne d\u00fczeyine indirmek, e\u015fya yerine koymak ve daha da k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc, insanda di\u015fi cinsiyete \u00f6zg\u00fc olan\u0131, nesne yerine koymak olmuyor mu? Geleneksel bir k\u00fcstahl\u0131\u011f\u0131n zamanla nas\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, eski erkek \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131\u011fn\u0131\u0131 yinelemiyor muyum acaba?<\/p>\n
D\u00f6n\u00fcyor ve geri gidiyor. Bu kez, yans\u0131z bir nesnellikle bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kumsalda gezdirirken, kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f alan\u0131na girer girmez, bir kopukluk, bir uzakla\u015fma, neredeyse bir par\u0131lt\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fclmesini sa\u011flayacak bi\u00e7imde davran\u0131yor. Bak\u0131\u015f\u0131, gergin deriyi yalay\u0131ncaya dek ilerliyor, g\u00f6rme ile, edindigi \u00f6zel de\u011fer aras\u0131ndaki k\u0131vam\u0131 hafif bir \u00fcrpertiyle de\u011ferlendirircesine geri \u00e7ekiliyor ve bir an havada as\u0131l\u0131 kalarak, ka\u00e7amak ama ayn\u0131 zamanda koruyucu bir bi\u00e7imde, belirli bir uzakl\u0131ktan g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn kabar\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131na e\u015flik eden bir e\u011fri \u00e7izdikten sonra, sanki bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi yoluna devam ediyor. Art\u0131k durumum, olas\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f anlamalara yol a\u00e7mayacak bi\u00e7imde, a\u00e7\u0131k se\u00e7ik ortada- diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, Palomar-. Ama bu ka\u00e7amak bak\u0131\u00e7, sonu\u00e7 olarak, bir \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck taslama, bir g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn ne oldu\u011funu ya da ne anlama geldi\u011fini eksik de\u011ferlendirme, onu bir t\u00fcr, uzakta, kenarda ya da ayra\u00e7 i\u00e7inde tutma say\u0131lmaz m\u0131? \u0130\u015fte g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc, seksomanyak edep ve tensel g\u00fcnah y\u00fczy\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131n yerle\u015ftirdikleri yar\u0131 g\u00f6lgeye itiyorum yeniden…<\/p>\n
B\u00f6yle bir yorum, kad\u0131n g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fc \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131g\u0131n\u0131 hal\u00e2 sevgiye dayal\u0131 bir yak\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa ba\u011flayan bir ku\u015faktan olmakla birlikte, geleneklerdeki bu de\u011fi\u015fikli\u011fi, hem daha a\u00e7\u0131k bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce bi\u00e7iminin topluma yans\u0131mas\u0131 anlam\u0131na geldi\u011fi, hem de bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ften \u00f6zellikle ho\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in olumlu kar\u015f\u0131layan Palomar’\u0131n iyi niyetlerine ters d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor. l\u015fte, bu \u00e7\u0131kars\u0131z deste\u011fi dile getirebilmeyi istiyor bak\u0131\u015f\u0131yla.<\/p>\n
Geri d\u00f6n\u00fcyor. Kararl\u0131 ad\u0131mlarla, yine g\u00fcne\u015fe uzanm\u0131\u015f kad\u0131na y\u00f6neliyor. Bu kez bak\u0131\u015f\u0131, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc karars\u0131z bir bi\u00e7imde tarayarak, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs \u00fczerinde \u00f6zel bir ilgiyle duraklayacak, ama ard\u0131ndan, onu, her \u015fey ad\u0131na, g\u00fcne\u015f ve g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc ad\u0131na, k\u0131vr\u0131k \u00e7amlar ve kumullar ve kum ad\u0131na, s\u0131\u011f kayal\u0131klar, bulutlar ve su yosunlar\u0131 ad\u0131na, aylal\u0131 doruklar\u0131n \u00e7evresinde d\u00f6nen evren ad\u0131na, bir iyi dilek ve minnet sevgisiyle sar\u0131verecek.<\/p>\n
Bunun, tekba\u015f\u0131na g\u00fcne\u015flenen kad\u0131n\u0131 rahatlatmaya ve ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f yorumlardan temizlemeye yetmesi gerek. Ama yak\u0131nla\u015fmaya ba\u015flar ba\u015flamaz, kad\u0131n bir s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131\u015fta aya\u011fa kalk\u0131yor, \u00f6rt\u00fcn\u00fcyor, homurdan\u0131yor, bir kad\u0131n avc\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n usand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 \u0131srar\u0131ndan ka\u00e7\u0131yormu\u015f gibi, \u00f6fkeyle omuzlar\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rarak uzakla\u015f\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Bir yanl\u0131\u015f ahlak gelene\u011finin \u00f6l\u00fc a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, en ayd\u0131nl\u0131k niyetlerin hakettikleri gibi de\u011ferlendirilmelerini engelledi\u011fi sonucuna var\u0131yor Palomar, ac\u0131 bir bi\u00e7imde.<\/p>\n
Palomar, Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131<\/p>\n
T\u00fcrk\u00e7esi : Rekin Teksoy<\/p>\n
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Bay Palomar, \u0131ss\u0131z bir kumsal boyunca y\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Tek t\u00fck denize girenlere rastl\u0131yor, Gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n, kumlara uzanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcsleri \u00e7\u0131plak, g\u00fcne\u015fleniyor. Sayg\u0131l\u0131 bir insan olan Bay Palomar, bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 denizin ufkuna \u00e7eviriyor.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-276","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-palomar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/276","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=276"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/276\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=276"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=276"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.karasite.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=276"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}